Izabell's scoliosis has been changing and though we have not seen that Dr for a while (we go in July) I was thinking that it was looking better. But I have noticed changes....
Lately when putting her brace on after the break I have noticed that it is fitting a little different and would check to see if it was on right. Almost seemed upside down though it was not. It just does not feel like it is fitting her back the way it used to. It feels like it is not fitting her upper back on one side. When I look at hr back the major curve looks so much better and is less noticeable. A year ago I could see her curves kink back and forth and now I just see that she has a curve not the sharp kinks. But today while trying on leotards for ballet (she stars tomorrow and wanted all black attire, my sweet punk ballerina:) Her back has changed!! I noticed that her shoulder on one side protrudes more than the other side! The sales person noticed as well! The straps fit one side and would slide, twist dig in on the other side. It is like her shoulder blade and ribs have turned with her curves which is possible. Ahh I hope this is not a major change but will be calling the Dr in the morning. I know we won't get in any to see him any sooner then or scheduled apt since it is a couple weeks anyways but I want them to be aware of the change.
Izzy's eyes have been changing as well. I know I have posted about this already but now I see it more and more. I hope that maybe I am just more aware and that it is not getting even worse. Though I have a feeling that it is worse and progressing still. Her Dr said that she will most likely need surgery soon and even though I hoped that she might not need it. She has an apt with the assistant in July and then with Dr Cadrea six weeks after that. At the last apt he said he would give her this time but that we would most likely have to discuss surgery at that apt. Now that I am seeing her eyes working separately more and more I have to admit that eye surgery is looming in her future. I will keep everyone updated when I find out the details. This is not new info to me I still hoped that she would not need the surgery.
I have had people suggest though the years that it must get easier to see Izzy go to the OR since she has had so many surgeries. I am sure most of our friends and family now that this far from true. It is not easier to send your child into the OR even for smaller procedures, for some reason eye surgery freaks me out, OK the only one that did not freak me out was ear tubes! She is my baby! I take info in all the time about possibilities as since they are possibilities and not set in stone I try not to worry. I also have days when I see the changes and hear the reminders that she will need to more procedures and it is a heavy realty. So I guess this is just me accepting the eye surgery. So now the next step is preparing myself with knowledge and getting the right people (child life specialist) involved to help us plan and help Izzy though the process of another surgery. It i s not easier to send her to the OR but I do have more knowledge now than I did a few years ago about how to help her and try to make it as positive and comfortable a possible. After my surgery last week I was given anti nausea meds when waking up which helped me alot and I am going to talk with Izzy's Drs about this since she has thrown up after surgery the last few times waking up uncomfortable is bad enough but being nauseous on top of it is not something she needs to deal with if she doesn't have to. OK I am rambling and it is not even set in stone yet but I see the chisel and that means it is time to educate myself on this next step..
She is very excited about her first ballet class tomorrow and looks very cute in her dance cloths! I will take and post pictures and will try to post them tomorrow night. i am very behind on posting pictures, sorry. She also starts swim lessons on Monday!! We are looking into a couple 1/2 day summer camps that are a week long. There is a cooking one I think she would love and a hip hop dance one that her friend Crystal is going to take. Izzy would love to go to a dance camp with Crystal. Hopefully they still have an opening!